Feelings

Sean,

I don't know if I ever actually told you this out loud, I know I said it more than once to different people over the past 11 years. But I kinda had a philosophy about how you knew when you were in love with some one and it goes a little something like this:

You know you are in love when the first thought in your mind upon waking is of that someone and the last thought before sleep is of that someone.

I'm quite sure that someone famous said that just as I have or they said it better than I did. But what I need to know is what if that someone is on your mind all day and all night. I know there were times over the past 11 years where the feelings weren't the strongest and there may have been times when the "I Love You's" were said out of habit. But today and probably for every day in the rest of my life, I will never make the mistake of taking my feelings for you for granted. I will never utter those 3 words without knowing in my heart of hearts they are absolute.

I think about you more now than I ever did in our relationship and I did take it for granted that there would be a tomorrow and a tomorrow after that. I now find myself glomming onto anything that we shared together. I watch mostly programs on TV that we enjoyed together just so that I can share in the memories we made during that tiny block of time.

I miss you baby and know beyond a shadow of a doubt I do love you.

Wes