Another Chapter Closed

I remember sitting in the theater four years ago probably to this exact day watching a movie that from the onset I should have loved.  It was a romance.  It had action and adventure and more than anything it had vampires.  So all in all, it should have been a win-win.  It wasn't and I found myself bored at times and then when the big reveal happened and the vampire didn't burst into flames in the sunlight, I found myself a tad disgusted.  But you loved it.  You loved every minute of it.  Then a year later, we went to see the sequel and I was there with you all the way.  You didn't want to read the books because you didn't want the visual experience ruined.  So we watched as Bella tried to commit suicide and all that.  I remember there's a scene after Edward had left that she was so distraught all she could do was lay in bed and scream.  I don't know how many times I used that scene as an example of what it feels like to have your heart ripped out of your chest.

So here I was, in the middle of this saga and then the third movie was going to come out a year later...in 2010.  In November of that year, I was still pretty much a mess as I remember it.  Charles went with me in your stead and we made it through that movie and the subsequent film.  I am now sitting here, almost to the day and I am writing because today, I finished the saga without you.  As the credits rolled and they featured all the main cast the emotion washed over me and I sat and cried.  I cried on the way home and I've cried writing this.  I miss you still to this day.  With each thing that we started that I finish without you makes me hurt a little more.  There are days that I still get angry at you for leaving me and I know that it wasn't your fault and that you would have done it different if given the opportunity.  Today is a day that I miss you more than you know.  You are going to weigh heavy on me through this week and probably the next couple. 

I'll love you for a thousand years and a thousand more after that.