Television

Sean,

I just watched the first recorded episode of Grey's since you died. And I decided to watch it alone. Perhaps not the best idea. I pretty much cried through the entire episode and have been crying since. It kinda opened up the hole in my chest. It was a good episode, I would have cried with you sitting there anyway. You probably would have laughed at me but probably not. I think that even though there were times that you laughed at me crying over stupid shit or over tv shows, it was your way of loving me more. I know that those were some of the things that you loved about me, the fact that I did cry over ASPCA commercials or something happening on tv. I'm gonna keep watching our shows because they were ours. And I am probably gonna cry over them. I know that now. I figure Grey's was the hardest one to watch so I did it. Ripped the band aid off and now I can let the wound get some air.

I'm gonna have lunch with Michael Warga. It'll be good to see him out and about. Then I put out an open invitation to my friends to come have dinner with me at the new place in town. I think you might have taken me there just to see it but you would have hated the food.

My heart misses you a lot babe and I am hurting today,

Wes