Stages of Grief

Sean,

One of the things I have come to actually realize over the past couple of days is that the stages of grief are fluid. It seems that I am moving back and forward through them instead of in a straight line. I don't like this and I am not happy in the least about it. What I am finding I have the biggest issue with right now is with denial. Denial is kicking the shit out of me because for whatever reason, my brain is lulling me into thinking that you will just come walking through the door at any time. You are gone to work or your are out of town or whatever then when my logic kicks back in, it's almost like I go through a much minor event like when you actually died. I have to tell myself again that you are dead and it is like a knife to the heart all over again. I hate it and it's not fair. I thought that when I was done with denial, I would get to move on to the next one and feel it and continue through the damn steps.

I don't have to tell you that I miss you, that's freaking obvious so I will just say that I love you.

Wes