Home

Kristen Chenoweth was back on Glee tonight and all the songs except Fire by Bruce Springsteen and Beautiful by X-tina were all about home. About finding someone that helps to make a house a home and knowing that person will be there to be with you when times get rough. You were my home. You made this residence something worth having and I selfishly want that back. I want you back in my life to make our house a home again. I miss you so terribly right now and it's not fair. Everything in here reminds me of you and my heart hurt tonight.

I was talking to Trish about it the other day and the reason I don't want to watch any tv shows is when I delete one, it takes me one further from you. We were watching episodes of Supernatural that had recorded before you died and it made me incredibly sad to see commercials for tv that was happening during that time. The episode of Smallville that had the Justice Society in it happened on Friday. I will probably never forget that now.

I hope that things are good where you are and that you get to see and do amazing things. I miss my home and don't know if I will ever have one again.

Love you, babe