525,600 minutes or closer to it each day

365 days is rapidly approaching.  So much has changed over the past year I don't know where to start.  I think one of the most important things I can say is that for better or worse, I would not be the man I am today without you.  I have come to realize there are things in our lives that are completely out of our control and it is absolutely futile to attempt to do otherwise.  You gave me the strength I needed in order to see those things for what they are and be able to do something about them.  Don't get me wrong.  I would trade every bit of knowledge I've picked up this year to have you back.  I would trade it in faster than you could say go.  But it is those things I have learned and the things that you gave me that have made it possible for me to be sitting her right now typing this out.  I realize there are other methods in which I could have done things this year but I got them done.  I'm still an A/B student and I haven't let anything get shut off.  Without out you, that wouldn't have happened.

So a year is almost upon me.  It's scary.  It's daunting but I know that I have the strength to get through it and if I don't, I'll lay down and cry and fight my way through it.  525,600 minutes.  I don't know how I should have measured this year.  I can do it in DVDs and in books and other frivolities.  Or I can do it in pounds and inches that I have put on.  But I guess through it all I should be able to measure it in memories.  Memories of me and you around every corner, memories I've made in spite of myself and memories that are going to get me through the next 40 years.

I'll face this challenge like I've faced everyone before it and I will get through it because there was you.

Love you babe.