Broken

I feel broken.

It started this morning on my way to school listening to Pink's Greatest Hits.  Everyone knows there are a handful of musicians that you considered to be on the top of your list and I know that Pink was pretty high up there.  I don't think it's something you would have shouted to the heavens or paid money to go to a concert but I know you liked her music.  Nonetheless, listening the the album sent me spinning through a tangent of memories, like I do.  It made me think of Charlie's Angels 2 cause she has a single on that soundtrack and it just went from there.  On my way home, I was listening to Madonna, which again....sent me on a trail.  I sometimes feel like I'm damned it if I do and, well you know.  I spend time filling my life with things that will keep you close to me but in the same breath.....I spend my time filling my life with things that will keep you close to me.  I watched the hilarious part from the Justice League episode where Zatanna beats the hell out of Circe with furniture and laughed my head off like always but it made me think about when you and I watched it together and that made me sad.  Harry Potter is at the theater and I want to go see it desperately but I don't have you to go see it with.  I think that's probably whats killing me right now.  Not getting to finish what we started.  I know, I know I can watch it but it's not the same without you.  I miss my friend so much that it hurts.  I have surrounded myself with amazing friends and people that care about me but my heart is still empty.  I'll get through this like everything else but it doesn't begin to change the fact that you're gone and I don't have you.